sometimes i just couldnt understand why do people like to compete with each other. it maybe make sense to those who like to compete. but for me i really doesnt like the feeling. are they happy when they can finally beat their opponent? so what if they win? what's the point of winning when they hurt somebody else's heart instead? do they ever think about the people around them? how do they feel? i know for us to survive in this world, we do have to compete with each other to stand out so that we can get what we want. but why don't they compete with their ownself instead? believing that next time would be better. i think believing in yourself is the most important. dont find others and make them as your opponent and then think of winning only. what if the opponent you find is your own friend and he or she finds out about it? did they ever thought that it might hurt their own friends just for their own benefits? i always tell myself..darlene whatever you do, fight for yourself but not others, go beyond yourself but not others...if it doesnt kill you, it will only makes you stronger!

i wonder why human beings can be so fake at times. lies can be say easily without feeling guilty.
can be nice to a person in front of him/her but backstabbed them at the end of the day.
human beings are very weird creatures. i think there are always reasons why do God creates us.
is it for us to understand this world? for us to adapt to the living of the humans? for us to blend in this full of lies, briberies, hypocrites, hatred, temptations of communities? maybe it is a test for all of us. to get a better understanding of yourself and others.
undeniably, im fake sometimes. i don't know how to change this fcking attitude. but sometimes it is a need to be fake in order to protect yourself against others or oppositely. but im trying to change this attitude from now on and i cant promise myself that i would not tell lies forever. that is how the cycle of life works in the earth. fake~~

until then...xoxo

thoughts and review

time is passing..the clock is clocking..and I still have time to blog. I din do much revision today as i have class this morning and then stayed at school for a while but when I decided to go home, it rained! so might as well wait for my frens to finish their exams and head home together. it has been raining cats and dogs these few days. shit man!! it's not that i don like raining but when it happens everyday it just get on my nerves!!
well in just a few weeks time, I'm finally going off this place already for good. ask how excited i am! I'm able to see all my friends once again and my family!!!! kl is just not my place. too much of temptations. branded shops all around. money wasted for unnecessary things. and i dont really like how the people here treats others. when selfishness are just too much! couldnt blame them though when most of them are already used to be like that. its part of their tradition, i guess? where some of them can be so racists! is not that im being judgemental, but sometimes enough means enough. there is no need to be that harsh. sorry for offending by the way.
but unlike our beautiful kk where people here live peacefully. there is no racist problem around and even it has, it would be only a small things to some of us. even though kk is small, but small places do minimize those problems rite?
anyway, i just cant wait to go back!! yipeeeeee~~

it's been a while since i last blogged. been so busy with all the assignments and presentations. but thankfully it has over for now. but worst has yet to come. finals are like in less than 10 days! shit man i better get my ass off to study!
well to update many things has happened during this time. some misunderstandings between friends and other stuffs. im not really gonna talk about it because, the past remains in the past. there is no point of blogging it anyway. that will only make me a bad person. but anyway, my friends from kl are goin to kk next month. honestly we really don't know where to bring them around except for pulau and kundasang. never minf we'll think of another way though. and im goin to brisbane and goldcoast next month too! this is my second time to aus after my last visit to perth way back then. and i was supposed to go to sdyney with my family during 06 but they left me cuz i was having spm!! shit to spm!
and one more thing. shangrila has already accepted my application for my intership. finally!! honestly, im both scare and excited to go training because it would mean a whole new experience and environment for me and more people that im about to meet. just hoping everything would go smoothly. wish me luck!
until then...xoxo

2 days before marketing presentation
6 days before beverage presentation
7 days before financial assignment due
19 days before finals

and

exactly 1 more month before i can go back!!
wohooo~~~!!

another surprise at neway!!

i was so thrilled dat my classmates gave me another surprise!! honestly, this is the best 20th bday that i ever had!! girls, i will not forget this surprise EVER!!! thankss n love ya!!

thanks for the flower n cake~

ming, the one who always 'kacau' me!!

guess wat, it's only a sling bag bt ming purposely wrapped it in a huge box!!


*group photo*

my 20th birthday *28th Oct*

the bday cake~~ shit!! im 20 alr!!

litong u shud be lucky that i got u on picture!! haha...

wan ching

kal sine

fei fei..bro 4ever!!!

bernice....sista forever!! love ya!!

* thanks guys for the surprise!! rili appreciate it so much! even though i have some kind of sixth sense that u guys were gonna surprised me!! thanksss..!!